So… as some people may know I’m what may be considered by some to be a complete and utter fuck-up. Yeah… never gotten the four year college thing down. Never been able to keep a job. To be honest, the sum of my life is pretty much squat. I have pretty much zero prospects for anything right now, and I’m well aware that I’m a failure in the eyes of those that love me.
I’ve always been the tech guy… the computer guy… the one everyone calls for tech support. I’ve always, ALWAYS, thought I was going to go to school for computers and business. I’ve always thought my life would be spent inside of a little cube circled around the water cooler talking about last nights episode of and bitching about how nobody ever brings in donuts anymore.
Then recently with some issues I’ve had with school(mainly the fact that I completely fucked it up again… and once again disappointed my parents) I started rethinking my life and I’ve come to decisions that will probably surprise those closest to me. I’m sure everyone who knows me though I’d be sitting in the office too… Well, after all the thinking I’ve done I realized that the office… thats not what I want. EVERY SINGLE JOB I’ve had in an office… has made me want to claw my, or someone else’s, eyes out. Spending my life in a suit and/or business casual would just suck the soul out of every pore of my body. For some people the office is how they spend their lives. I just know that I’m not cut out for that.
I’ll let the choice I’ve made stay private and known only to those who really need to know it, but I think that for once I’m finally making a decision about my future for me and only me. I’m not basing my choices off of anyones expectations or thoughts on what my future should be. Yeah, I may not make millions doing what I’ve chosen to do… but at least it is finally something that I and I alone have chosen.
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